Change of plans.....

Well, last week was a week of excitement and some high hopes. I just fell in LOVE with the little old cottage that we have been wanting to move! I was really elated about how cute and adorable it is!
We have been investigating the cost to have the house moved (and to PAY for it from the man who just plans to have it torn down....) and the cost of moving electrical lines, phone lines, rerouting traffic, remodeling, etc...and by Saturday we had EACH come to the conclusion that the cost would just be too much for an old house. (Although we LOVED it...and even now, I have a lump in my throat about it. I have become too emotionally involved with it and I have to step back a bit! gulp, gasp, ragged breath...)
I think my sweet Roger was somewhat relieved that I had come to the same conclusion as he had. He is so precious and sometimes I can certainly act like a spoiled brat. I know he didn't want to disappoint me! I was at work and talking to him during some down times and just asked him his opinion. We had come to the same conclusion and we feel some relief although we are also saddened and greatly disappointed.
One big concern for me is that there was a REAL smell of mold and mildew in the house. It is on an old yucky basement so I said to myself that probably that was where the mold was. But as I was falling in love with the nooks and crannies and built in cupboards and archways and woodwork and ....well, anyway, I also noticed a thin layer of mold on the cabinets in the kitchen. I am not sure how dangerous the green mold is but for a family (mine, not Roger's...) that has major respiratory issues with ANY kind of mold and mildew, I just felt that this isn't the best environment to have my/our children or Roger and myself in...not to mention our new grand babies. I know that it can be cleaned but I'm not sure that those mold spores wouldn't still be living in the old plaster walls...yuck....just waiting to come to life again!
So, it is a bit disheartening to know that our little cottage will most likely be torn down but I have to realize that it is NOT my responsibility to save it...although I would like to...but what is best for US is what is important. It also, strangely enough, made me thing about the verse that says not to lay up our treasures on this earth (to me this cottage was indeed a TREASURE...) where moths and rust corrupts...(not to mention mold...) but to lay up our treasures in Heaven. I am too concerned with our TREASURES on this Earth when NOTHING will remain!! (I think about that when I go to art museums...the some time "priceless" things of this earth will be no more!)
I need to be way more concerned about what I am laying up in Heaven and if I am furthering God's Kingdom!
We still are buying the sweet little piece of ground and we are investigating putting a modest home on it...whether stick built or a "true" modular or "panellized" home. We will certainly have a great adventure together in building "our" home together. (For those who have never experienced it...and I hope most never will...it is hard to move into a house that was once shared with another wife. As nice as I want to be...sometimes I just want to live in "OUR" house together. I know it sounds selfish and mean spirited and it was something I didn't ever expect to feel but I have. A modest home that is ours TOGETHER will go a LONG way in our relationship building! That sounds mean, I know, but until you experience it, you just don't know how you might feel. No matter how nice we as Christian ladies want to be, I think we are kind of "territorial" critters. That is just a kind of "honest" sharing...so please don't judge me too harshly!! :) )
It is now 2 a.m. and I have to go to bed! Roger has been asleep a long time...but I had a terrible tired headache and took a long nap this evening so I'm not as tired as he is now!
Have a lovely day!
Blessings,
Beth